Friday, April 24, 2020


of the small things often the ones we neglect but the ones that truly made me happy these days.

Thank you for the quiet morning without the pressure to rush. The mornings that I could soak in the bounty of the days that passed and what's to come! A time to stay quiet and ponder.

So, on the morning of today, I opened the blinds in my bedroom and saw the glimmer of the sun, I can already tell the sun is going to shine pretty!

I was tempted to think of the agenda at work but I resisted it but instead decided to start the day listening to a talk from Dr. Shefali, an inspirational speaker which I started to follow recently. I was captivated to say the least and was planning to continue listening another session within the day.

I had to start the zumba immediately after the session I listened to , so I have enough time to get my coffee and go for my 8am meeting. Today is Friday by the way, end of week and I am usually creative on Fridays :-) and also today, I have focused on things that I am thankful the most;

- that I have a job and that it enables me to take care of my children while earning

- that I am not away from my children in this unprecedented times

- that my heart is CALM and my temperament is STABLE

- that my husband loves me

- that I am capable of realizing my limitations, my mistakes and what I can and cannot change

a Special privilege for 15 years....

A very late post indeed but in September 2019, Cheyenne turned 15.

Sʰᵉ ᶦˢ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ Rᴀʀᴇ Oɴᴇs...
ˢᵒ Eғғᴏʀᴛʟᴇssʟʏ Hᴇʀsᴇʟғ.
ᵃⁿᵈ ᴡe ᒪOᐯᗴ ʜᴇʀ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ

She never demands, she don't overdo things, she thrives on simplicity BUT---make sure she has her skincare products, ELSE.

In short, she is never LIKE me and I love that, because I want her to be who she is,  not because I am her mom.  I am merely a vessel who brought her up and would strive hard to be the parent she needed.

I am truly grateful to God, He allowed me to become your mother. I know that a lot of wonderful surprises is in store for you in the future and i can't wait to see your eyes glitter when you feel most happy! 

It was a cold September morning on the 11th of September 2019, a winter's tail.

Thank you for coming into our lives! 

As we enter April 2020.

All these commotion started last month here in Straya but earlier on other parts of the globe.
The virus killed 88k of people around the Globe in a very short span of time.
As of this writing, there are 1.6M people infected , 330k recovered globally. These are mere numbers, I became dumb of this for sometime now and I felt like the past days were a blur. I have stopped looking up on news trying to live normally.

Living life to the fullest daily has become a struggle, when the future is uncertain. I know, I am asked to keep positive, but I cannot pretend it is business as usual. So , these pendulum of emotions haunt me- I am either very happy, or panicky, I cannot focus on tasks at hand and easily I get distracted.

So, took me a bit of time to gather my senses and re-focus as I was on denial for 4 weeks. Thought this is just a nightmare but looked like this is going to  be our new normal and whilst we grieve of the past, we also are hoping for better days.

So, I am going to keep my days entertained whilst waiting but also progressing on my acceptance in a way.

Let's start with this Q&A , inspired by instagram @abideph:


An ordinary object that I find beautiful: 

my newly re-potted plants as they thrive

A sight or sound that makes me smile: 

the voice of my children talking while taking out the dishes from the dishwasher
high-pitched Kylene and soothing, calm voice Cheyenne

A person who inspires me.

Dr. Shefali
I have seen her talk twice until today and plans to listen to her talks more

A song that calms me

This song from Mama Mia OST, Our Last Summer

A phrase that makes me feel hopeful

we are allowed to grieve

A glimpse of spring in Amsterdam last year visiting Van Gogh!

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