Narcissist Encounter

someone I couldn't stand.
No matter how I tried to really understand----she made me feel so awkward, uncomfortable.

Chances are, you've encountered a narcissist. You know, that friend who somehow manages to revert every topic of conversation back to himself; the colleague who is always bragging about having the latest, greatest ____; the family member who thinks she is hotter, smarter and just generally better than you at everything.


But sorry, I'm not going to resort to flattery to feed your disorder. No way!
and God said, I need to be kind to OTHERS.

the CPA journey

2 compulsory subjects done!
I am getting the positive vibes to start all over again!

2 grades of more than PASSED is undeserved but I will claim it, anyway! My studying is done in haste with these 2. Hope to really be at serious mode in this 3rd subject. FINANCIAL REPORTING - --- here i come!


Papa Jesus, as always, let's keep that partnership High!
Study harder po ako, promise!

my most important Reader

keeps on peeping through my blog nowadays.
And I feel so self-conscious about it.
Awww, my Cheyenne has roped herself into the world so fast and furious that treating her like a baby is simply not applicable.

She has progressed really fast and as a mom--it is a mixed of excitement and fear.

Like, last month--she asked me this question, "mom, how did you become pregnant?' Of course, it was a 'aha' moment. I knew it was the perfect time to reveal the real answers. A direct to the point question necessitates a direct to the point answer. No time for hesitation from me-- I did blush in the process. She said she felt embarrassed & yeah, moments like that no matter how awkward-----are special moments for me. These are moments I was waiting but had no idea how to prepare for. I think like any other huge moments in your life- you will never come prepared. Like having a baby for the first time.

Chuck and I didn't decide of having a baby too soon in the marriage. We were living miles apart and I got pregnant after the wedding. We didn't get to spend a real honeymoon. How is that? We were not living together, we had a baby, I was a having a budding career and I have a maid to help me out. Geez. That's how our marriage begun.  I know, it was not ideal but we worked it out.


And we had Cheyenne. She came no matter how what and she made my world really special. She is first love, a love I couldn't demand anything more. No disappointments, no expectations. I laid my eyes on her everyday and I know the world will not crumble because I have the most beautiful treasure!

so, I hang in there & we turned any mundane day truly mem'rable!

The LOVE experience.

'The thing is we keep on rolling under the stars'


To the man ,who kept it rolling for me. Who kept me agitated over the nicest & unpleasant surprises. For coping with the bad ass in me & for treading life with me albeit the thorns & kept the roses tucked. The important part of this journey is ---you walked with me.

Happy birthday, let's keep it rolling, love.

it's OK if you are patient

today, i celebrate over winning against myself .
Against my impatience, my negativity& against my un-cool attitude.

I am working hard to be a best version myself & I think it is part of growing up. We become less careless, less reactive but very excited of living the life we have prayed for!

I have always wanted to be non-conformance to the demands of the world & yeah, it's awesome to be different. To be just me & it's enough.

Okay, let me share one of the vision i had that actually became a reality.

when we bought this place in 2012, I knew something like this will happen. We will be lounging in the yard with a new baby. And it did happen. I get so elated when my vision are actually happening.

I can't stop thinking about this & get so really thankful with my whole heart!

Sorry

i want you to know that am fine of confrontation. That to ridicule me as a close friend means a lot to me. After all, who is perfect?

im more than glad that over time, you have found your way to finally blurt it out--- 'that i should mind my own business & how dare me to have judged you'

i have parked myself in in full gear of acceptance and humility saying Sorry!

oh yeah, true Friends are like that and that is why, I do miss you.

The Birth

It's running 9 months before I finally had the time to write this intently. The birth of my Kylene is well planned. She was born in comfort, through elective caesarean section. How fortunate to have given birth in the best public hospital ever! The Westmead Hospital, 10 minutes drive from home. And because its public, we have to bear with some restrictions ----like its FREE for a start. Yes, it was free! All of it! The service is Awesome, the only downside is, husbands are not allowed to stay after 8PM onwards and can rejoin at 8am the next day but a round-the-clock midwife is there to help your every need. I have no complains except for the very painful wound after the operation. But like any other pain---it didn't last.

After 3 nights, I was released. A midwife visited me at home to weigh Kylene as she had issues with her weight in the beginning & was initially diagnosed of jaundice. But luckily, the doubts were cleared and her weight improved. I am really cared for. I feel that I have done something really good to have deserve all these wonderful gifts of LOVE, KINDNESS & just these feeling that the world has instantly fell inlove with ME

I am LOVED. and that matters. And because I have it, I could freely give it away too. It is even more meaningful to give LOVE, to be KIND, to be at PEACE with the WORLD.

I don't have a POEM prepared for her on her arrival---but I have all prayers to GOD. That she will keep my baby on HIS side. That HE will protect her. That HE blesses her a bright future! Even brighter than what we already have!

It's an emotional experience to see your baby the first time. I couldn't forget that moment. It was an entirely different experience from the first. And is equally amazing. The miracle of pro-creation! I have a genius, cool , absolutely amazing God!