and you turned 10.

I can't believe it's been 10 years.
I have spent 10 years of wonderful mem'ries with you, Cheyenne.

The difficulties of mommyhood certainly is outnumbered by the many times I had my breath taken away of its JOYS! I love the life we shared darling, the many funny, honest, surprising , sometimes agressive conversations.

It is all beautiful. It was once a DREAM-----it is like living in the CLOUDS when you have all those dreams coming TRUE. That is how I am going to describe LIFE with  You. It is better than marshmallows or lollies and chocolates all combined!

I am proud of what you have become.
I am even prouder that you appreciated and enjoyed the kind of LIFE we have provided for you.
I agree with you---I am too emotional of all these. But I LOVE you that sometimes it overpowers my capacity to LOVE. It is too great like that! God must have LOVED me so much for enabling me to experience this Kind of LOVE.

It is wonderful. More than SUPERCalifragilisticExpialidocious!

I wish that you continue to LOVE LIfe!
Continue to being compassionate.
Be Generous of your resources & time.
Most of All- call on GOD at all times.


Love Lots,

Mama.

Patience.Kindness.Understanding.

I wish I could understand the True Meaning of KINDNESS and able to put this to PRACTICE consistently. 

And carry the virtue of Patience. 

and I hope I don't just walk away on people. 

I wish , I am more understanding. I wish I could broaden my mind. 

I believe I could change for the better of me. 

Narcissist Encounter

someone I couldn't stand.
No matter how I tried to really understand----she made me feel so awkward, uncomfortable.

Chances are, you've encountered a narcissist. You know, that friend who somehow manages to revert every topic of conversation back to himself; the colleague who is always bragging about having the latest, greatest ____; the family member who thinks she is hotter, smarter and just generally better than you at everything.


But sorry, I'm not going to resort to flattery to feed your disorder. No way!
and God said, I need to be kind to OTHERS.

the CPA journey

2 compulsory subjects done!
I am getting the positive vibes to start all over again!

2 grades of more than PASSED is undeserved but I will claim it, anyway! My studying is done in haste with these 2. Hope to really be at serious mode in this 3rd subject. FINANCIAL REPORTING - --- here i come!


Papa Jesus, as always, let's keep that partnership High!
Study harder po ako, promise!

my most important Reader

keeps on peeping through my blog nowadays.
And I feel so self-conscious about it.
Awww, my Cheyenne has roped herself into the world so fast and furious that treating her like a baby is simply not applicable.

She has progressed really fast and as a mom--it is a mixed of excitement and fear.

Like, last month--she asked me this question, "mom, how did you become pregnant?' Of course, it was a 'aha' moment. I knew it was the perfect time to reveal the real answers. A direct to the point question necessitates a direct to the point answer. No time for hesitation from me-- I did blush in the process. She said she felt embarrassed & yeah, moments like that no matter how awkward-----are special moments for me. These are moments I was waiting but had no idea how to prepare for. I think like any other huge moments in your life- you will never come prepared. Like having a baby for the first time.

Chuck and I didn't decide of having a baby too soon in the marriage. We were living miles apart and I got pregnant after the wedding. We didn't get to spend a real honeymoon. How is that? We were not living together, we had a baby, I was a having a budding career and I have a maid to help me out. Geez. That's how our marriage begun.  I know, it was not ideal but we worked it out.


And we had Cheyenne. She came no matter how what and she made my world really special. She is first love, a love I couldn't demand anything more. No disappointments, no expectations. I laid my eyes on her everyday and I know the world will not crumble because I have the most beautiful treasure!

so, I hang in there & we turned any mundane day truly mem'rable!

The LOVE experience.

'The thing is we keep on rolling under the stars'


To the man ,who kept it rolling for me. Who kept me agitated over the nicest & unpleasant surprises. For coping with the bad ass in me & for treading life with me albeit the thorns & kept the roses tucked. The important part of this journey is ---you walked with me.

Happy birthday, let's keep it rolling, love.

it's OK if you are patient

today, i celebrate over winning against myself .
Against my impatience, my negativity& against my un-cool attitude.

I am working hard to be a best version myself & I think it is part of growing up. We become less careless, less reactive but very excited of living the life we have prayed for!

I have always wanted to be non-conformance to the demands of the world & yeah, it's awesome to be different. To be just me & it's enough.

Okay, let me share one of the vision i had that actually became a reality.

when we bought this place in 2012, I knew something like this will happen. We will be lounging in the yard with a new baby. And it did happen. I get so elated when my vision are actually happening.

I can't stop thinking about this & get so really thankful with my whole heart!