I LOVE being your MOTHER

I wouldn't want anything more than being here with you as your MAMA. I will not apologize for not always being 100% NICE because I can't 😁,

BUT here's what I could promise.

- I will strive hard to  be someone you will look up to that means I will be a better version of myself everyday

- I will show to you that you cannot rely on your own abilities alone and that you have to call on God in all circumstances

- I will let you experience difficulty and let you find ways to cope with it 

- I will be quiet and still when you need me to. I will not nag when not needed. ( i will try)

- I am your safe place, come to me.

I will let you live independently in this LIFE.  I will not be over-hovering you but I will LINGER around you so that you know I am near.  Call on me and find comfort with my company.

I LOVE YOU my dearest daughters. 

OPEN my HEART and you will see HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME! 

( Chy & Ky in South Korea - April 2019)

2009 to 2019!

I haven't written. Blame it to social media. How our lives are dictated by it, I hate it!
I am seriously thinking on how I could separate myself of this unhealthy lifestyle of browing insta and fb. I have to admit, It is not a healthy habit.  It is killing my productive time.

I should say, blame it on me.  But I am kind to myself giving myself time to move away from it slowly. DISCIPLINE is Key!

But this entry is a culmination of our 10 year journey since we got our Australian visa. It is an important turning point of our lives actually and has to be written because whenever I look back at it, I can't help but to be immensely GRATEFUL.


Let's rewind to October 2009, when we got the Permanent Visa which is actually some 3 months after we got our Singapore PR visa. Boom! So God, didn't give one, he granted us two. Choices that are equally good and we have to pray a lot of his Enlightenment to be able to Decide.  Looking back, either choices were good and after careful thoughts, we decided to move to Australia..


January 21, 2012. Flew to Sydney to start a new journey.  Eventful journey to say the least. And we are definitely blessed with friends, kindness from strangers, health, jobs, and many other things  that God showered to us for our journey to be successful. He gifted us with wisdom, courage and a new child in 2013.

August 23, 2013. Along came Kylene. Our addition who definitely commanded our world. She was born brave but loud :-)

Cheyenne on the other hand is very much a driven child, focused and enjoying the lifestyle we have.  We drive around Australia and we enjoyed the great Straya outdoors!

August 2014. Flew to Philippines for Kylene's first birthday! She looked very tiny, frail and sickly as a child.  She had eczema and has issues sleeping.

September 2015. Moved to Seven Hills, our new dwelling. Yet, another journey.  Thank God for surprises along the way. We have afforded this house and many others because this was the year when the real estate market was high and we sold our old property at a growth price that we couldn't imagine after only 3 years of holding the properly. Another surprise that kept us astounded!

December 2016. Cheyenne graduated primary. She is moving up to a secondary school that she dreamed of.  We couldn't have afforded it but oh my God! She was a granted a scholarship, holy moly! Lord, bless my children!

April 2017.  This was the first bucketlist trip where we thought splurging a bit is OK. So, we took a helicopter ride over Queenstown and landed on glacier. It blew our mind.

January 2018. This is not an easy year to start especially for me but I decided to Fight on and be HAPPY, no matter what. It was a battle well fought!A positive breakthrough happened as well.  Thanks to a friend who helped me along the way!

2019. Is a BIG, BRIGHT year!
          We traveled to Europe! It was like a DREAM! The 4 of us, having the time of our LIVES in      London, Paris, Antwerp, Amsterdam & Prague! I have to write more deets of this trip so my kids can read on in the future!


God's grace is AMAZING. His FAITHFULNESS lives. His PRESENCE in us is FOREVER!

Chuck & Yen, 40.

Cheyenne, 14

Kylene,5

Queenstown is LOVE

I love Queenstown.
This is my best place so far in the entire planet.
Nothing beats this just yet and I will fly back if I could in 2018!

This is me Right Now.

This is me right now.
Just wanting to stay put and not THINK.
I am in my LAZIEST of times and why can't I do that?


So, i really wanted to just be in a restful state and not worry of how I move forward professionally. But priorities are piling up and so does my personal needs.

Therefore, since last night,  have deleted Facebook and Instagram from my mobile to help me get to the peaceful state that I wanted to achieve.  I want to be pure with my intentions and my plans. To enable me to think peacefully and purposely, i have to drive myself out from all distractions of the world that I used to excuse myself from being FOCUSED.


There is a time for everything and to me , this is the best time to get rid of SOCIAL MEDIA.

I will love myself .  I will be the best version of me.

---work in progress----

and this write up

Relevant and concise. That is what I got from this writer. Daniel Wong.
A very good reminder to a mom like me who is in the rollercoaster ride. 
But I assure you, life is good. 
Don't be afraid of the responsibilities of Motherhood. Actually, it is beyond Amazing! 


Do you know a mom who’s stressed?

Or maybe you’re a stressed mom yourself?

I’ve worked with thousands of students over the years to help them become motivated, responsible and resilient.

As such, I get to interact with many parents on a daily basis too.

Most of these parents lead busy lives. They provide for their family, take care of their children, send their children to various classes and activities, and help their children with schoolwork.

This is on top of the other responsibilities they have to fulfill too!

I notice that the mothers I talk to are especially frustrated and stressed.

Why?

I’ve boiled it down to these 10 reasons:

1. They feel guilty. They feel as if they’re never doing enough for their children. They sometimes feel inadequate as a mother.

2. They compare themselves with other mothers. They see other mothers who seem to have everything figured out, and wonder why they don’t.

3. They strive for perfection. Instead of focusing on progress, they strive for perfection in their career, family life, etc. But perfection is never attainable, so they feel disappointed.

4. They have unresolved conflicts in their close relationships. They often have strained relationships with their children or spouse, which adds stress to their life.

5. They don’t take care of their own needs. They spend so much energy meeting the needs of others that they neglect their own physical and emotional needs.

6. They try too hard to control their circumstances. They feel uncomfortable when it seems that the situation is out of their control. As an instinctive response, they become more controlling.

7. They focus too much on what’s going wrong, rather than on what’s going right. Instead of concentrating on what they appreciate about their children, spouse and life, they concentrate on what needs to be changed or fixed.

8. They think they can have it all. They believe the message that mothers can have it all: career, family, social life, health, etc. But, in fact, no one can truly have it all, because choices always involve tradeoffs.

9. They worry too much about the future. They want the best for their children and family, so they often become anxious about the future.

10. They try to fix their children. When they see their children behaving in ways that aren’t ideal, they start nagging and reminding their children. But this rarely works, so they become even more frustrated.

Just to be clear, I'm not criticizing mothers! Mothers have a lot on their plates, and I greatly respect the work they do.

But it's definitely possible to be a happy, fulfilled and effective mom.

How do I know this?

Because I have a mom who's exactly like that!

written by Daniel Wong.

A simple one

Glad to be here. Thankful that I am calmer. happier and in a better state of mind indeed.
I love the life you gave me oh God because it is good.

Life is good

Life is not always easy, but then you’ve never needed it to be easy.

Because you are strong, and willing to grow stronger.

You know the good things demand work.

And you’re always willing to do that work.

You’ve learned to take the troubles seriously while being able to laugh about them too.

You’ve found that joy is possible in every moment, and multiplies when shared.

You do what you have to do, when it must be done.

And you feel the incomparable satisfaction of knowing you’re always helping to push life along.

Most of all, you give until it hurts, then you give and give some more.

And when occasionally you turn around to look back, you’re amazed at how much progress you’ve made.

Life is good, because you are eager to accept it as it comes.

Life is good, because every day you renew your commitment to make it so.

 

— Ralph Marston

here comes my favorite season!

SPRING. Days of tulips and beautiful weather.
So, for the first weekend of September, Spring came and  remained true to its promise! And so here I am again, lookin' forward to days that I don't have to open my office emails and fret and sigh.

I actually love my life here in Sydney, it is more that I could imagine and could afforded. But there are days like this.  I become so demotivated and tired and actually, it has been constant the past days. I am uninterested of all the chaos that is happening. All I want is to stood still at times and whilst part of me is trying to add value, I just don't have to nerve to try.  Believe me, it is the most unhealthy feeling in the workplace. 

I have no one to blame but me. That sometimes, I am the negative energy. and there are times , I needed to withdrew from this because I am trying not to negate the seemingly positive vibes they are trying to take on to this. Although i know deep inside, it is not going to work. see,  i am negative. 

What do you do? 

Maybe next year ain't that bad. or maybe leave next year. I don't know. My mood hasn't changed for 2 months now and it is keeping me down whenever I go to office. It is just not me anymore.  

I don't like this ill feeling. It's insane to be in this boat.

On the lighter note, our very simple Father's DAY out is no other than the place called McDo and outlets.

My girls are very lucky to have a dad like you. 

Top 3 things you did right in this lifetime.

1. you begged that I marry you ( laugh)

2. you convinced me to procreate 2 children ( more laughs)

3 you looked at your daughters for the first time and promised them to be the best version of a Father than you can be. ( love)